Stepping Away

I always say Love is the way...I can only show that person how I feel, but without reciprocation I am only that...a show. Always and forever an entertainer emitting my emotions through thoughts, words and movements only to feed off it from my audience. How is it, then, that the audience of choice chooses not to watch? Is that what entices me to push forth? To go beyond my norm and grow beyond the boundaries in hopes to reach what I need?

Stepping away from personal matters of my heart, my life as a dance teacher has been a good experience for me. I've been a teacher for a while now and it has allowed me to grow so much as a person. Teaching has given me the gift of patience, understanding, compassion and empathy. I want every one of my students to excel and want a level of skill that breaks beyond and surpasses my own. To watch my students master a dance motion, or smile when they finally executed a move that they've struggled with gives me a satisfaction that has no definition.

Amongst all that, I still fear that I am burned out in life. Its been too long that I have gone without my motivation. I know what the next steps are, but I cannot find my light to show me the way. If I live by what I believe-that love is the way-I cannot see it.

My ONE Word

To have but just one word to tell him.
To assure him and to comfort him
So he'll know I'll always be there amongst the grim
Times that he lives;
Amongst the burden difficulty gives
With or without the luxuries
Of sleep and endless possibilities.

To have that one word to put him at ease
So he'll never second guess my intentions and need to appease
Because that is how I am and
That is how I was raised.
To be a strong woman who could not be phased
Away from my beliefs, my values and
My need for tradition, culture and family.
To be known as a woman of true talent instead of my exotic vanities.

What that one word could do
If it fell upon my lips
Into his ears and in his heart
To melt the ice and break apart
The stones of his walls
That made him feel indestructible and strong
But I knew all along that you are just trying to hide
I knew all along that you are hurting inside.

What can I say to make you believe
That it's okay to be vulnerable with me
And share your hardships and sorrows
So you will never feel lonely.
I'm not worried about me, I know what to do.
Because of that one word,
I am a strong woman and I will stand behind you.

To know that one word that I've always wanted to say
And tell you how I feel without scaring you away.
You may not want to share your burdens
You may not want to show your pain
And even though you're not ready for me to say it
I will always be here to SHOW you that LOVE is the way.

LOVE is always the way, Honu. There is no better way I can say it.

My Honu

The turtle moves slowly because he carries the World on his shoulders. Bearing such a burden keeps him grounded and although he wishes to be amongst the birds in the sky, the responsibilities laid upon him will always be there to keep him from floating in the clouds...

...that was a story I was told when I was young.